I was speechless...I did not know what to say or do.
The nurse said my team would call me later today to discuss options.
Then the tears came...I called my husband and his tears came. He said, "you are stuck with me and "I" (our daughter)!" I know how lucky I am but the pure sting is there.
I simply can't go through more fertility treatments: financially, emotionally and physically. I am 39 years old and would be worried about medical problems for the baby. We would have to start over with IVF and both my husband and I know we need to move on with our lives for our sake and for our daughter's.
I felt a bit lost for a few minutes but then I rallied. My best friend to the rescue! She will hang with me for a bit this afternoon and cheer me up before I drive back home to CT.
I am still in shock right now. I know with the coming weeks that getting off of all of the hormones will help my mind heal. I always wanted two kids...it was so important to have siblings. Now I need to create a new reality for my daughter. My job now is to give my daughter the best life possible.