It's been a while since I wrote and there has been a lot going on. We had a big family event last week which was wonderful and it was great to see my daughter have so much fun with her family. I am getting ready for our last FET in less than 2 weeks and I am nervous. I hate what the hormones do to me and they make me feel simply horrible. That lasts for several weeks and I just want it all to be worth it. I feel more positive about it all right now, whether we get pregnant or not. I will still need time to mourn if it does not work again, but I know I will make it through. Of course that is easy to feel now when I am not on any hormones, but it is good to know that I can try to hang on to these more positive feelings.
Right now I am trying to focus on the things I can control in my life, which are not many with a 3 year old! I am trying to put positive energy into my work and trying to make fun plans. When you are going through fertility treatment, nothing is under your control and it is important for me to take some control before I start the process again.
I will continue to look forward, move forward and think positively of my future, whatever that may be.